Re begun

I started this blog at the beginning of the year to give me a sense of understanding of what I could turn into direct practice. This is my learning practice in self-cultivation. However, the strange thing is that now that I am uploading my first post!

It’s not until something that is very big and it hits you full face front that you are able to actually fully confirm the skeptical experience to be the real. It is something that takes you outside of yourself and puts you in a place where you can barely assimilate the experience as your own. The divisions of real vs illusion and the conventional vs. the universal become very thin or too thick to put together into a cohesive language of your own vocabulary. One has to seek outside of the self to find those who may have had similar experiences or are able to point out what exactly happened to you.

I had a phenomenal synchronicity happen to me this Halloween, where large chunks of my life just seem to click into one. These were parts of myself that were kept separate to myself and others due to my own contradictory nature. It wasn’t until this last weekend that every little thing flowed into a nice little soupy pot with an experience that I could physically taste.
I can simply sum it up with Prahevajra’s last testament to Manjushrimitra.

These are the three precepts that strike to the heart the essential point.

1. Direct Introduction
2. Remaining without doubt
3. Continuing with confidence

When there is a sliver of an opening and you can finally see without hesitation of what you see, then one’s practice can continue with confidence. I have finally gotten a taste of the confidence.